We all have battles, some more serious than others and often I wonder if we have these battles as something to go on for. Maybe it is something to conquer, I don't know but I have my own challenges that have become more prevalent in recent times.
Meet anxiety, it's this negative person that makes you feel weak in your own body, forcing my brain to fight against itself.
Then there's the true me, who feels better being active and outgoing; I always feel proud of myself for getting dressed and leaving the house for something new, fun or even something I am not entirely relishing.
That does not always happen however.
Often I will be sat on the foot of my bed and my brain will list a million reasons why I should sit back and take a day off.
Sometimes my anxiety wins and I say "yeah, you're right" and lie down, maybe take a nap or even turn Friends on for the millionth time.
It seems strange being a 25-year-old and scared of places I have never not been welcome.
This could be a jujitsu class, work or even five-a-side.
This isn't a blog post of how to combat anxiety its a post to myself to remind me that often it is the fear of the event keeping you out of enjoyment.
So many times I have regretted my decision and struggled to sleep during the night because of it.
It is a battle and I think it will continue to be a battle forever but it is one I plan to take on head-first to get my life in check. I have never not been a lazy person so the person inside that longs for that hour extra in bed is a stranger and one I have no intention of being friends with.
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